Part three has been a long time in coming. And, I apologize. I have been through some changes. Moreover, I didn't realize it at the time, but I was actually writing the previous posts - Parts 1, 2, and now 3 - about myself and my situation - as well as for anyone else who recognized themselves in what i had to say.
It seems that first hand, I have experienced a situation in which I am faced with these very demons from someone I loved. It doesn't matter WHO that someone might be. Some of you who read my posts probably already know who it is. And, I am not here to trash this person. Despite how it ended, we DID have our good times - it's just that sometimes, no matter how much you love someone and think you understand them, THEIR demons are just to hard for them to deal with. So, where does that leave the other person? Or rather, where does that leave ME?
Simple - I have to forgive, and I have to learn to deal with the hurt and any other debris caused by its fallout, and go on. And that I have been doing, and it's been slow at times, but I am making progress - although it hasn't been easy - to say the least. But what I am taking away from the situation is GOLD - it's simply what I have learned from the experience that is now a part of me forever. There are many things and in so many different facets, but here are just several of them for you - short and sweet, in the interest of time:
1. I have learned that it is true - that many people will come and go in a person's lifetime, and each person who stopped "by" in that life, did so at the precise moment they were meant to be there. And, although it is easy for a person to at first, have regrets and think things like, "Wow, i wish i had never met him or her". And, "if only I hadn't opened my heart to this person" - I have found that you should actually be grateful to that person for being in your life, and for teaching you those things you needed to learn about YOURSELF, if nothing else.
2. I have learned that I have an inner strength that has been tried by the fire of pain, and has NOT been found lacking. And, Although, sometimes this feeling varies from day to day in me actually believing it, every day I grow a bit more in strength, and I thank GOD and the universe (and YES, that person) for revealing this to me THROUGH the experience I had with God, the universe and THAT person.
3. I have learned that love and compassion for other people DOESN'T have to diminish just because you get hurt by them
- in fact, I am positive that even if this person doesn't appear to have learned from me in this lifetime, the chances are good that I have also taught him something at some level, anyway, whether he recognizes it or not.
4. I have learned that companion animals can be a great source of spiritual healing, as well as a comforting warm body in the night that contains a heart big enough to get you through the rough spots, AND with all the essence of a clown to make you laugh, and bring you back down to earth whenever you need it. (Which these days, is often, I'm afraid)
5. I have learned that my experiences have also been so I am able to help others in similar situations, who may not be at the level of thinking yet to where the pain has started to become bitter sweet, instead of just unbearable.
It is true - It is always darkest before the dawn...And with those thoughts my friends, I bid you Good night....
It seems that first hand, I have experienced a situation in which I am faced with these very demons from someone I loved. It doesn't matter WHO that someone might be. Some of you who read my posts probably already know who it is. And, I am not here to trash this person. Despite how it ended, we DID have our good times - it's just that sometimes, no matter how much you love someone and think you understand them, THEIR demons are just to hard for them to deal with. So, where does that leave the other person? Or rather, where does that leave ME?
Simple - I have to forgive, and I have to learn to deal with the hurt and any other debris caused by its fallout, and go on. And that I have been doing, and it's been slow at times, but I am making progress - although it hasn't been easy - to say the least. But what I am taking away from the situation is GOLD - it's simply what I have learned from the experience that is now a part of me forever. There are many things and in so many different facets, but here are just several of them for you - short and sweet, in the interest of time:
1. I have learned that it is true - that many people will come and go in a person's lifetime, and each person who stopped "by" in that life, did so at the precise moment they were meant to be there. And, although it is easy for a person to at first, have regrets and think things like, "Wow, i wish i had never met him or her". And, "if only I hadn't opened my heart to this person" - I have found that you should actually be grateful to that person for being in your life, and for teaching you those things you needed to learn about YOURSELF, if nothing else.
2. I have learned that I have an inner strength that has been tried by the fire of pain, and has NOT been found lacking. And, Although, sometimes this feeling varies from day to day in me actually believing it, every day I grow a bit more in strength, and I thank GOD and the universe (and YES, that person) for revealing this to me THROUGH the experience I had with God, the universe and THAT person.
3. I have learned that love and compassion for other people DOESN'T have to diminish just because you get hurt by them
4. I have learned that companion animals can be a great source of spiritual healing, as well as a comforting warm body in the night that contains a heart big enough to get you through the rough spots, AND with all the essence of a clown to make you laugh, and bring you back down to earth whenever you need it. (Which these days, is often, I'm afraid)
5. I have learned that my experiences have also been so I am able to help others in similar situations, who may not be at the level of thinking yet to where the pain has started to become bitter sweet, instead of just unbearable.
It is true - It is always darkest before the dawn...And with those thoughts my friends, I bid you Good night....
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